[damn it damn it damn it why does she have to care. why does she always have to care. why is she a mature person and Levi is like this, freaking out just at the idea of kissing someone else even though they know it'll feel good, it'll be a huge relief, it'll be like. it'll be. a way to relax after tonight and they need that so badly and why is Yang like this.]

[Levi's hand closes into a fist but only to get their fingernails digging against their skin to give them something else to focus on. they want boundaries and Yang is establishing them and letting them know that it's okay to stop if they want. this is what they want. this is what they've wanted from Yang for a while. they need to adjust their mental image of her if this is the kind of thing she's going to be doing for them from now on. or at least for tonight.]

[they exhale sharply and follow Yang up the stairs a few steps behind.]

Sorry. I like your plan. I need to get out of this stuff and into something more comfortable myself, so... we'll handle that first. [making these lists helps bring them back down to earth. breaking it down into manageable chunks.] Then we'll see what happens next. Okay.

[they don't have any of their own clothes here. maybe they'll steal one of Yang's shirts or something. either way, the mutter that follows it sounds fairly casual, a separate thought though it may be.] You've already seen everything anyway.